18th Mar 2022: Feelings Cold

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It shouldn't be this way.
That I have to remind you even the simplest of things.

Such as holding my hands,
Or hugging me.
Asking about my day.
Or being concerned about my family because they should be yours too.

I am seriously tired of having to ask those of you.
Because it makes me feel like I am seeking charity.

This is not love.
I don't feel it anymore.

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