Chairchu's Journey

Today, I felt invisible and small at work. It was not one incident, but the accumulation of many many. Whether colleagues rather approach someone else even though I was available, or someone outside the office told me I don't know anything about what's going on and ask to speak to someone else instead. It took me some time to regain my composure and I think I did my best at that moment to handle the emotions. This year, I strive to stay focused in my journey of self-love. There is so much to learn about loving oneself. It can be, but it's not always about the aesthetic. Self-love is doing things that make me happy. Self-love is pushing myself to be better. Self-love is not being too hard on myself when I don't do well. Fats are stubborn, but I shall persevere. People can be nasty, but I am shall not be fazed. Now that I got the more emotional part out, I shall move on to the happy things that happened at work! WS knew I was upset about the nasty client so when he went t...

If I were to choose only 2 games that I will be able to play for the rest of my life, it will be Audition (Next Level or whatever server exist), and Dota2. Today, I got a Dota2 lesson. It was helpful to a certain extent as I recap on the basics. I also picked up a new Hero, Shadow Shaman. Since I got some time before bed time, I decided to play one round on my own. I started a Medium bots game and Mel checked in on me. With that, we started a Medium bot. I picked Shadow Shaman and Mel picked Pudge. Playing with Mel is always so chill. HAHAHA. Though years passed, he is still as patient and encouraging as I remembered. When I got a kill, he's use the "affirmative" wheel chat. When I got kills, he would say "stronk" HAHAHAH. It was honestly funny cuz the credits definitely didn't go to me but he'd be so encouraging. Throughout the game, he explained the new updates to me via the game chat. Things like the outpost, the neutral items, things I could buy. How...

Actually, I had no idea why I added him. I was half expecting him not to expect but still half expecting he would. Am not sure if we would ever talk. Regardless, I am thankful!

I miss the feeling of dating. As life becomes more overwhelmed with work and other commitments, the sparks of a relationship and the priority of it kinda gave way. I miss the late night dates. I miss the unexpected and playful kisses and touches. I miss the flirting on texts.

Friendships and relationships are like blankets. They form thread by thread, each thread representing an element, a memory, a moment that contributes to the coming together of the end product. The higher the thread count, the more ideal it is. Like good blankets, good friendships and relationships can hold you and give you a sense of security, protect you from the cold yet not too warm to the point of suffocating. When they look their best, you'll never trade it for anything. As blankets wear and tear, so do friendships and relationships. One day it look no different from their best and the next moment, there are missing patches. There you are wondering, what happened overnight? The truth is, it didn't happen overnight. It happened over time. The threads got unwoven, one by one. A thread came undone when one party starts slacking on the catching up, on the checking in. Slowly gone was the interest in each others' lives. A thread came undone when one party stops sharing the ...