27th Sep 2021: Still Hurts

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It still pains me to leave office without you. Or see you leave without me. What do I do with this pain?

[17:39]

Streamed for ANLCOTY 2021 yesterday. Went to meet the wansui cuties, gude after that with Doro. The cuties gave me an Octopus that can flip inside out with a different expression.

They’re also thoughtful. They said they specially picked a red one cuz they know I love red. I don’t think they know how happy it made me. ❤️

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