22nd Sep 2021: 3rd Wedding Anniversary

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These days, I’ve been looking back on some of the memories we created. Tbh, I do that from time to time. Just that I do it even more recently. I looked back at blog posts, Instagram posts and just a few moments ago, our chat log on Facebook Messenger.

Everything suggested that you really loved me. There was an earnest vibe to your words, your expressions and your actions.

What changed?


[12:40]

Recently, Lenny does seem more expressive. Can tell through the little things. Earlier on, he was explaining about how he was right that a machine at our office wasn’t not working and the reason was not what the supplier insisted.

He used terms like “af” and “shit”.

I know he uses “shit” hahaha, especially when he’s really bothered. Just find it slightly amusing still. 

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