18th Sep 2021: Communication Breakdown at Workplace with L

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Earlier on in the office, I had a question for both Winson and Lenson.

Perhaps it was my bad, I didn't start the conversation by addressing them both since only the three of us were in the office.

I asked if it was possible to finish the milling and fitting of a Dr's case by 24th.

Winson asked Lenson and Lenson replied Winson and Winson replied to me.

Winson asked me a question, I replied, Winson repeated to Lenson and Lenson replied to Winson, and Winson replied to me.

It hurt me, why Lenson couldn't have just directly replied to me.

Regardless of what happened between us, this is workplace still. As much as it is difficult, the priority was still getting work going. That communication was inefficient. Moreover, it was just 2 days ago when Winson said he doesn't want to be sandwiched between Lenson and I so all the more he shouldn't have to be the "Messenger" in Lenson and my communication.

I couldn't help but think if it was someone else doing the asking, would Lenson have directly replied to them.

When Winson left the office station, I asked Lenson nicely how come he wouldn't reply directly to me.

He said it was because he thought I was talking to Winson.

I said I was talking to both of them.

He said he didn't know.

I explained that Winson and I were engaged in the convo but since he knew the answers, he could have responded directly to me too.

He just nodded his head with an expression that I read as he can't wait to get away.

Was I wrong to think he should have responded to me directly?

Am I wrong to feel hurt?

Although I know I can't compare, the then-him and now-him, I can't help but wonder at which point did our communication broke down and went so horribly wrong.

It's painful because there were the kind of small things that I kept trying to get him to understand but he doesn't seem to. And then I'll end up getting frustrated because he doesn't see the importance of why these small things matter and then it will reflect on my words and actions towards him.

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