18th Feb 2019: Feeling blessed
Me: I can't imagine myself with anyone else.
Him: Then don't.
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It's been a whirlwind recently. CNY gatherings, juggling with different projects at work.
My mood has been going up and down.
Tonight is one of those nights when I feel blessed. Blessed because I am working together with my best friend. Blessed because my husband is so supportive in every way he can, whether it's looking out for my happiness, or literally helping me with my work.
I cherish my relationship with everyone around me -- my family, friends, significant other. Sometimes, I give more thought about one aspect more than the other.
The eyeshadow incident on 16 Feb triggered me to think more about the importance of choosing the right partner.
I used to be doubtful when people said, "You'll know when you meet the right one." But then I met Lenson and I felt that those people were right.
I don't know how to express how thankful I am for Lenson but let me just try.
His awful past aside, there was never a single awkward moment between us. We have clumsy moments when we feel unsure of what is the next step, but it was never a moment of deciding to retreat from progressing together. It took us some time but we are here.
We are here today because of how persistent he is, and how much he grew as a person. I am being completely honest here that he matured much more than me in our relationship.
He is much of a do-er than say-er.
When we dated, he would take initiative to plan where to go. He is a very hands on person so he would DIY gifts for me even on days that don't hold special meaning for us. When we got married, he took the lead to plan everything out so magically, from proposal to our marriage ceremony.
And I cannot imagine any of my previous boyfriends doing that, or just loving me so selflessly. Of course, that is not to say my exes aren't capable of loving anyone selflessly. My understanding of them remains stagnant at the point we went our separate ways. They all have their good points and it's just that they were never be able to give me what Lenson has given me.
I realise how much more I am in love with Lenson every day. I really love the way he laughs and I would hate to know if he laughed like this with any other girl. I really enjoy the jokes he tells, even if they are lame af sometimes. I love the way he smells and how he make me feels when he wrap his arms around me. With him, I feel so safe, protected and loved.
It's true that Lenson loves me more than I love him. We both know this. But we also know that life is short and our time together is limited. Never mind who love who more, what's most important is we enjoy our time together, and that we grow old together.
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He pulled me in for a hug.
And my world feels safe once again.
Him: Then don't.
---
It's been a whirlwind recently. CNY gatherings, juggling with different projects at work.
My mood has been going up and down.
Tonight is one of those nights when I feel blessed. Blessed because I am working together with my best friend. Blessed because my husband is so supportive in every way he can, whether it's looking out for my happiness, or literally helping me with my work.
I cherish my relationship with everyone around me -- my family, friends, significant other. Sometimes, I give more thought about one aspect more than the other.
The eyeshadow incident on 16 Feb triggered me to think more about the importance of choosing the right partner.
I used to be doubtful when people said, "You'll know when you meet the right one." But then I met Lenson and I felt that those people were right.
I don't know how to express how thankful I am for Lenson but let me just try.
His awful past aside, there was never a single awkward moment between us. We have clumsy moments when we feel unsure of what is the next step, but it was never a moment of deciding to retreat from progressing together. It took us some time but we are here.
We are here today because of how persistent he is, and how much he grew as a person. I am being completely honest here that he matured much more than me in our relationship.
He is much of a do-er than say-er.
When we dated, he would take initiative to plan where to go. He is a very hands on person so he would DIY gifts for me even on days that don't hold special meaning for us. When we got married, he took the lead to plan everything out so magically, from proposal to our marriage ceremony.
And I cannot imagine any of my previous boyfriends doing that, or just loving me so selflessly. Of course, that is not to say my exes aren't capable of loving anyone selflessly. My understanding of them remains stagnant at the point we went our separate ways. They all have their good points and it's just that they were never be able to give me what Lenson has given me.
I realise how much more I am in love with Lenson every day. I really love the way he laughs and I would hate to know if he laughed like this with any other girl. I really enjoy the jokes he tells, even if they are lame af sometimes. I love the way he smells and how he make me feels when he wrap his arms around me. With him, I feel so safe, protected and loved.
It's true that Lenson loves me more than I love him. We both know this. But we also know that life is short and our time together is limited. Never mind who love who more, what's most important is we enjoy our time together, and that we grow old together.
---
He pulled me in for a hug.
And my world feels safe once again.
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