06th Aug 2018: AuditionSEA's Closure Announcement

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It's like knowing someone who has terminal cancer, knowing he/she will pass on any time but not knowing when. Despite being mentally and emotionally prepared for the dreaded day, you can't help but feel like your heart stop for a second when the day actually arrives.

My heart stopped for a moment when I came across the news.

AuditionSEA's player base has been dropping for a while. The server has been quieter and quieter. It was no surprise. The community was toxic with the same old few people spreading their cancerous vibe. Asiasoft invested close to zero effort in hyping up the game. The originally active and friendly players had all grown up and started to be occupied with work or studies.

Including me. not the active and friendly players part but definitely the work part.

It's almost the same as chasing a drama for months and years, and finally when the drama ended, we're at a loss of what to do and how to feel. Is it being empty? Is it being sad? I don't know how to say it.

AuditionSEA had always been a special game to me. Through this game, I got to become best friends with Kimchu. I got to gain her and Lotti as my sisters. I got to know Boon as claim him as my brother. There were so many other people who even if I lost contact with or have lesser contact with, who will always have a special place in my heart. People like Eddie, Shirney Jie, Zuoyue Jie. I am also thankful for people like Ping Siong, Grace, Sin, Yuting, Kyo, Azriel for playing a part in making my time in AuditionSEA a memorable one.

Throughout the years, I've learned a lot from the game. Perseverance and patience from trying to pass license, buying channels, training chance key. I've gained valuable friendships with people I cherish for life.

Most of the IGNs that were created held precious meanings. The couple memos are the only evidences that the relationship between Eddie and I existed.

The FAM was a virtual home to many and especially me.

I missed the time when Novice was a bustling channel. One where you don't need a buddy list because all if they are online, they would be in the lobby list. Everyone knew everyone. Everyone was friends with everyone. We had friendly battles, and unite together when people from Free channels were determined to badmouth Novice (camper) players saying we're too noob to advance. Of course, our top players from Novice had those fools stomped to the ground.

Rumours that AuditionSEA will close soon had been going around for some time. I could only continue trying my best to tag as much as I can for the remaining days just to tell myself I tried my best in getting to my target. Still, it pains me that I'll never be able to reach the max ring for Yeezi and penutzz and for Annwai and Magzilius.

There this tinge of sadness that I'll always feel for the closure of this game. This network. This virtual space. My pillar of support when I was alone and outcasted at school. Rings and levels can be retagged. But couple memos, even if rewritten will never be the same. They were there to groom the characters, and now they are not.

Is this grief? It must be.

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